goodness, chinese chinese. it's ironic that i am born into a chinese speaking family and yet my chinese is beyond hope. gosh. o levels is in 13 days time wow! i don't know what to do. even my tutor is shaking her head in desperation (as always). cause my chinese is so basic.

i can memorise, but i can't understand. i can speak, but i can't read or write. and i'm a chinese. wow! how am i to survive in future. everyone is telling me that china is going to rise up and take over the economy and such. so i must speak chinese well in order to earn a living in future. even ang-mohs are learning chinese.

gah!

and my eyes are shutting. youtube is down, and i didn't watch my drama serial yesterday night.

i like taiwanese idol dramas cause it's nice and it's superfical, and it gives you that glimpse of hope of having something you know you won't get in reality. wow. like how fairytales were created to make life look easy. =)

yawn. there's school tomorrow so i guess i can't watch my drama serials until o's are over and i've got a pile of books that i've yet to read. sigh, now when i read books, i take forever. it's like a page a day. and i've lost all the passion i have for anything gosh. books are like books, food is like food, and TV is just my addiction. i even stop yearning to sleep. wow. i just play with my dogs all day! haha i long for a day when i can sit in a middle of a field in a nice cold country side, and play with dogs in the winter, and let the snow fall on my face. =)

i love the cold! why doesn't anybody else.

say cheese!